A friend sent me a message yesterday....so few have done that. I do know exactly how many and which ones and could have predicted that from the beginning, when I first met them. It's funny how just a little message can make a difference to a person.
My response opened the flood gate. I'd been searching for the right word to convey my feelings...not to others but to my self. And it came:
My heart is breaking. It is breaking in ways I didn't know were possible. It hurts to feel one's heart breaking. A child dying. A marriage dissolving. A house burning. The loss of a leg, an arm.
Nothing matters anymore. None of it. Gold, silver, bank accounts. Food, warmth, sunlight.
My heart is breaking but what is even more important:
I always knew it would. I tried to sever things that would minimize the damage. To cut them off before the bleeding.
What About Mars?
No more problems says the package
the cure came in, no more
warning labels and the price tag
no longer legible. It began
with flashy children and fast cars
then people started talking
about the leftover stuff
after the move out,
wondered what would happen
to the crystal ball and Japanese flag.
Where to put Mars now?
Whose house next?
[48.16] Say to those of the dwellers of the desert who were left behind: You shall soon be invited (to fight) against a people possessing mighty prowess; you will fight against them until they submit; then if you obey, Allah will grant you a good reward; and if you turn back as you turned back before, He will punish you with a painful punishment.- From the "Victory" in the Glorious Quran
"Mountains may move from their position, but you should not move from yours. Grit your teeth. Lend to Allah your head (in fighting for Allah, give yourself to Allah). Plant your feet firmly on the ground. Have your eye on the remotest foe and close your eyes (to their numerical majority). And keep sure that succour is but from Allah, the Glorified." Sermon #11 Nahjul al Balagha, Ali ibn Abu Taleb, Chief of the Believers. THERE IS NO EXIT RAMP.
[8.30] And when those who disbelieved devised plans against you that they might confine you or slay you or drive you away; and they devised plans and Allah too had arranged a plan; and Allah is the best of planners. -From "The Accessions" IOW, translates to "The escalation ladder" in the Glorious Quran.

